16 Jun 2008 - TV CASUALTY
TV CASUALTY
Let's get sex-positive, TV! I mentioned the new CBS show about swingers in the 70s (Swingtown) a few days ago and now Showtime has a great new show about the life and work of a beautiful intelligent escort. Secret Diary of a Call Girl is based on the blog/ novel of Belle du Jour, a high class London escort. The first two episodes are available for free here. So far the show is very very true-to-life. I've gone through most of this alone, and to see it played out like this is wonderful. It's like I have a friend to relate to, haha. Oh, the comforts of TV :/
Speaking of, I've been watching too much Battlestar Galactica lately. In the past 5 days or so, I've gotten through the first two seasons. I really love it so far-- I'm seriously considering a Cylon Raider tattoo, no joke. Sexy, right? :P
INTERNET PRIVACY
Many girls in my field are internet savvy. We build and maintain our own sites and generally know what's going on with the internet and privacy and all that. We also are looking out for ourselves. References are great. Totally wonderful and helpful in keeping us safe. But, we can dig a little deeper if need be. So, when you email me from your work account, I go to your work website. I check it out. I google your phone number and see where it leads me. If you don't have a hobby phone, I suggest removing easily-accessible personal information linked to your phone number from wherever you have it online. With just his phone number, I was able to find this guy's LJ, which lead me to his personal website, which contained his resume. And there you have it- his current employer and home address. Eek. Now, I'm a trustworthy lady and have no reason to use this information against anyone. But, blackmail is very real and very dangerous. Protect yourself guys! Not specifically if you hobby, but just in general.
A disclaimer: I don't really care who you are outside of your relationship with me, just as long as I know I'm safe.
PLAY
Wednesday I met up with a play partner I hadn't seen in a while. Every time we hang out I like him more :) He brought me a new book to read as soon as I finish Lolita (which is getting way dark by the way). It was really nice to catch up with him, since our schedules hadn't really meshed the past couple of weeks. I have a good bit in common with him and I really enjoy our time together. I actually feel kinda close to him. I mean, I feel intimacy with everyone, but I feel close to him. Like he's more of a friend than a business associate. It's boundary-blurring a bit. Anyway, we had a fun scene which involved the hood (pitter patter goes my heart), his notorious rubber bondage bands, and writing all over me with a marker. I love getting messy and being defiled like that! Yum!
Thursday I saw a new friend who was quite creative and impressively prepared for the scene. He bound me with chains (a first!), blindfolded me, hosed me down in the shower, put my face in the toilet (grr, yuck, but fun, but yuck), made me lick a plunger (which I found out later was actually new, whew!), fucked me with the plunger, and just generally destroyed me. He was lots of fun, but the scene was really heavy for me. Not too heavy, just.. goddamn. I was still kinda floating on the bus ride home.
WEEKEND
I definitely got my fix of hot queer grrls this weekend. Hot Pants on Friday, Cockblock on Saturday. I really had a great time, but I realized I have a major problem- I don't know how to talk to women. Men, no issue. I feel totally in control. I'm the pursued, it's easy. I just have to decide how far I want to let them go. With women, it's much more complicated. I get so awkward and nervous. I don't know what to say. I drink to loosen up and just maybe give someone my number. I feel like a 15 year old boy. And on a side note, I actually find myself saying that quite often these days. I've always really felt that way. I think I have to add that to my identity list, haha.
FATHER'S DAY
I hope you all called your fathers yesterday. Or at least thought about them. Things are kinda strained with my father. He's the only one in my immediate family I'm not "out" to. I mean, he knows a little.. but even that didn't go so well. Now that I'm across the country, these phone calls are, well... awkward to say the least. I can't honestly answer most seemingly innocent questions. For example: "So, what have you been up to?" "Are you working yet?" "Have you been seeing anyone?" I know he doesn't mean to, but he's just setting me up to lie. I hate hate hate lying and will avoid it all (almost) all costs. I've never really faced a situation in which it is actually the better decision to flat out lie to someone.. especially a parent. It reminds me of the Depeche Mode song "Policy of Truth". I never quite got that until now. Ugh. It's a rotten feeling. Maybe someday our society will progress enough to accept what I do. Maybe.
Let's get sex-positive, TV! I mentioned the new CBS show about swingers in the 70s (Swingtown) a few days ago and now Showtime has a great new show about the life and work of a beautiful intelligent escort. Secret Diary of a Call Girl is based on the blog/ novel of Belle du Jour, a high class London escort. The first two episodes are available for free here. So far the show is very very true-to-life. I've gone through most of this alone, and to see it played out like this is wonderful. It's like I have a friend to relate to, haha. Oh, the comforts of TV :/
Speaking of, I've been watching too much Battlestar Galactica lately. In the past 5 days or so, I've gotten through the first two seasons. I really love it so far-- I'm seriously considering a Cylon Raider tattoo, no joke. Sexy, right? :P
INTERNET PRIVACY
Many girls in my field are internet savvy. We build and maintain our own sites and generally know what's going on with the internet and privacy and all that. We also are looking out for ourselves. References are great. Totally wonderful and helpful in keeping us safe. But, we can dig a little deeper if need be. So, when you email me from your work account, I go to your work website. I check it out. I google your phone number and see where it leads me. If you don't have a hobby phone, I suggest removing easily-accessible personal information linked to your phone number from wherever you have it online. With just his phone number, I was able to find this guy's LJ, which lead me to his personal website, which contained his resume. And there you have it- his current employer and home address. Eek. Now, I'm a trustworthy lady and have no reason to use this information against anyone. But, blackmail is very real and very dangerous. Protect yourself guys! Not specifically if you hobby, but just in general.
A disclaimer: I don't really care who you are outside of your relationship with me, just as long as I know I'm safe.
PLAY
Wednesday I met up with a play partner I hadn't seen in a while. Every time we hang out I like him more :) He brought me a new book to read as soon as I finish Lolita (which is getting way dark by the way). It was really nice to catch up with him, since our schedules hadn't really meshed the past couple of weeks. I have a good bit in common with him and I really enjoy our time together. I actually feel kinda close to him. I mean, I feel intimacy with everyone, but I feel close to him. Like he's more of a friend than a business associate. It's boundary-blurring a bit. Anyway, we had a fun scene which involved the hood (pitter patter goes my heart), his notorious rubber bondage bands, and writing all over me with a marker. I love getting messy and being defiled like that! Yum!
Thursday I saw a new friend who was quite creative and impressively prepared for the scene. He bound me with chains (a first!), blindfolded me, hosed me down in the shower, put my face in the toilet (grr, yuck, but fun, but yuck), made me lick a plunger (which I found out later was actually new, whew!), fucked me with the plunger, and just generally destroyed me. He was lots of fun, but the scene was really heavy for me. Not too heavy, just.. goddamn. I was still kinda floating on the bus ride home.
WEEKEND
I definitely got my fix of hot queer grrls this weekend. Hot Pants on Friday, Cockblock on Saturday. I really had a great time, but I realized I have a major problem- I don't know how to talk to women. Men, no issue. I feel totally in control. I'm the pursued, it's easy. I just have to decide how far I want to let them go. With women, it's much more complicated. I get so awkward and nervous. I don't know what to say. I drink to loosen up and just maybe give someone my number. I feel like a 15 year old boy. And on a side note, I actually find myself saying that quite often these days. I've always really felt that way. I think I have to add that to my identity list, haha.
FATHER'S DAY
I hope you all called your fathers yesterday. Or at least thought about them. Things are kinda strained with my father. He's the only one in my immediate family I'm not "out" to. I mean, he knows a little.. but even that didn't go so well. Now that I'm across the country, these phone calls are, well... awkward to say the least. I can't honestly answer most seemingly innocent questions. For example: "So, what have you been up to?" "Are you working yet?" "Have you been seeing anyone?" I know he doesn't mean to, but he's just setting me up to lie. I hate hate hate lying and will avoid it all (almost) all costs. I've never really faced a situation in which it is actually the better decision to flat out lie to someone.. especially a parent. It reminds me of the Depeche Mode song "Policy of Truth". I never quite got that until now. Ugh. It's a rotten feeling. Maybe someday our society will progress enough to accept what I do. Maybe.
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UPDATE/ AUSTRALIA
26 Apr 2009
PROP K ROUNDUP
15 Jul 2008
AND...
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SO SO SO
01 Jul 2008
PRIDE W/PICS
16 Jun 2008
TV CASUALTY
05 Jun 2008
HERE AND THERE
22 May 2008
ALRIGHT ALRIGHT ALRIGHT ALRIGHT
12 May 2008
CUTE!
09 May 2008
I <3 SF
05 May 2008
COLLARME CREEP
05 May 2008
DUPED!
14 Apr 2008
BIRTHDAY.
01 Apr 2008
WOW, OK
01 Mar 2008
YES, FUCKING SICK.
11 Feb 2008
THE VIRGIN
09 Feb 2008
DEAR GOD
27 Jan 2008
GODDAMN
17 Dec 2007
CATCHING UP
02 Dec 2007
YUM/CK
25 Nov 2007
SORE TODAY
14 Nov 2007
YUMMMMMM
12 Nov 2007
EEK
